Well shi*
First came the physical withdrawals (marijuana is addictive, I don’t care who says other wise - it physically hurts), then the mental rationalizing (I can smoke if I can just continue to buy detox drinks, right?), and now I have no drive to do anything. I can’t focus on work, I can’t focus on my art, I can’t even make love to my wife. I never thought weed was so fundamental to my existence. I had a chance to smoke tonight but I didn’t partake.
I can’t even play music anymore - everyone I play with abuses marijuana and anything else you can think of.
I recently lost my best friend to heroin less than a month ago; you would think this would set me straight but all I want to do is smoke.
I am looking for an outlook, a perspective unknown to me. I am in rehab but I do not trust the counselor or program; I have a bitter taste in my mouth from the whole criminal justice system.
Tell me your stories. It would help.
Thanks.
