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wow,
I am having the hardest time not picking up right(drinking or coke)now. I don’t know if it is the holiday, being alone or what. I have 5 months tomorrow and I feel fine and things are going ok, just cannot explain it. The last few days I have wanted to drink or do coke so bad. Normally, I just play through the horrible scenario that occurred the last time I used and that usually helps. I had lost the house, the job. Well, now I still don’t have the job and am at the parent’s house, but I am no longer am upset over that. I think my recovery was/is going well, working on the 6th step, but I just cannot explain this.. This is the disease showing itself, after all this time. Interesting, and I thought I had this licked!!!! I probably sound like have not learned anything. I just feel like I am ok to use, but am really not. any suggestions would be greatly appreciated. Thanks.